Thursday Thoughts

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Namastè 🙏🏼
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Hello everyone,

I’ve been trying to actually “blog”, for weeks, now. I’ve just felt uninspired and down right gloomy. Thankfully, I feel some of that exciting creative flow rushing back through my veins. It’s an indescribable sensation, the juices of nutritious writing.

I’ve been working through cobwebs of my heart and my home. Things that have sat for far too long, needing a final place to call home. Lots of “stuff”, ended up in the trash. If I no longer use it, after six months or more, it has no purpose in my life. The cobwebs in my personal life have also been cleared out. I have a great family life, and I don’t need to feel obligated to anyone and /or about anything of which I’m truly not responsible. The remaining treasures, I’ve kept, are beautiful. They’ll always have a place in my heart.

Here, in Cleveland, we’ve stayed inside while temperatures have risen into the 90s!! I can’t remember a summer in years being this hot. I don’t mind heat; however, I’ve never been a fan of humidity. The girls enjoy the patio, park, and playgrounds, usually. This heat keeps up, we’ll be at the splakshpad again, soon. It’s a fantastic place for kids to gather, and enjoy one another’s company. It’s a part of Cleveland, I’ve never seen anywhere else.

I’ve spent much of today, cooking for the weekend. Guh, these girls are so picky, and it stresses me out trying to get them to eat right. Anyway, today’s dinner is corn on the comb (my summer obsession this year, as if this happens every summer. 🤦🏼‍♀️ It sure doesn’t!) and parmesan pork chops! Everything smells amazing. Here’s the pork chop recipe.

I didn’t use the mustard and it still smells amazing!!

So other than that, I’m fretting about school uniforms, getting my car sticker for this year and trying to find time for self-care. You know, all the fun stuff. I’m so grateful, my daughter’s father is taking both girls this weekend, so I’ll be alone… Working on my mountain of laundry but at least I’m able to do it. That’s truly the gift, having the means to do it. I get on Pinterest, sometimes, and the images of other parts of our world leave me speechless. (I’m aware this is randomly off topic). There’s real issues, issues and concerns for survival, in other parts of the world. We who have commodity, should be ever so thankful… And not squander it.

That being said, have a wonderful rest of your day.

Good Afternoon, Evening, and Morning.

#SpeakLife into yourself

#SpeakTruth into your mind

#SpeakConfidence into your heart

#SpeakLove into this world

Spread Kindness like it’s all the world has left.

Namastè 🙏🏼🕉

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Gratitude Journal 07/4/19

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What I’m grateful for today?

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07/04/19

  • Corn on the Cobb
  • Sparklers
  • Butter
  • Legos
  • Lawnmowers
  • Poetry
  • Pinterest
  • Beauty products
  • Baby wipes
  • Kindness

“Cultivate the habit of being grateful for every good thing that comes to you, and to give thanks continuously. And because all things have contributed to your advancement, you should include all things in your gratitude.”― Ralph Waldo Emerson

NAMASTÈ 

Accepting What Is

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I don’t know how. I don’t know why.

A situation, such as this, requires one thing… acceptance.

We’ve all been in a situation where we’ve just had to accept the truth. Sometimes, the truth is difficult. Sometimes, the truth is positive and we struggle to believe it.

Why do you struggle with accepting?

Insecurity? Rejection? Disowning? Fear? Bitterness? Anger? Abuse?

When we face the “why”, we can heal apart of ourselves. Healing can open new doors; and, create opportunities for beautiful beginnings.

Saturday 💛 Vibes

Good Morning!

Today’s a new day.

What brings your heart joy right now?

To whom would you show gratitude?

This morning, my daughter and I fed the birds and squirrels. I was excited to see birds actually paying us a visit.

After we came back inside the warmth, we did a  step by step instructions of how to make toast. She’s easily flustered, and lots of information at once doesn’t work. She did well, and I’m thankful that we did it together.

I’m not sure whats in store for today; but I’m determined to feel good. Later, I’m thinking pancakes 😁

 

Spring has Sprung 🌷

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Many exit ramps here in Cleveland are homes to lovely 🐘 elephant statues. This one is Zivah’s favorite. The Blue one ( yes there’s a Blue one) is mine. The red one down the street from this one is Calandra’s favorite. Nearly every day, the girls make a HUGE deal of them lol… As if they’ve seen them for the first time, every time! This road is Fulton Road, and turning right will lead you to a branch of the Cleveland Public library. Sitting lovely outside there, is a giant squarel. I didn’t realize there was such a thriving taste for art when I moved here.

There’s an incredible Downtown Sculpture Tour for anyone who’s interested in checking it out 🕉 ENJOY 🐘!

My Mental Health Journey 5

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“You seem happier!”

Someone just texted me that.

It’s crazy how fast words hit my eyes, then my heart, head, and soul at the same time.

Inspiration is so refreshing.

Anyway, what these three words said to me is

” You’re validated.”

” You’re hard work is paying off.”

” You are improving, what you’re doing is working.”

It’s encouraging to hear from another that they see what I’ve been working so hard to achieve.

It’s not about acceptance from anyone else, but that my efforts are evident and I can proudly smile in self validation.

….

I am happier. It’s true.

In my writing, I’m able to expose my ugliness and feel heard.

That, alone, is freeing.

You’re my therapy sessions lol, except I’m not paying a fortune, and limited to two hours.

….

I’m happier because of this job opportunity.

There’s more to that than what’s on the surface.

Ten years ago, I was a married closeted Bisexual, living in low income and ghetto housing, miserable, lost, and unhappy.

I had little confidence & very little pride in myself.

That year, I graduated with a 4.0 and a teaching license.

It was the being of my self discovery.

This job opportunity is the first one that I’m excited to start.

This is the first one that I feel confident to do, and to do well.

This is the most motivated and eager I’ve felt about a job ” EVER”!

MAYBE it’s because this job is career material, incredible in so many ways.

…..

I’m happier because I’m working on my emotions.

Being INFJ & HSP, AND EMPATH is exhausting.

There’s only a few of you who can possibly understand what I’m saying.

But, what I’m doing, and I just went through this process this morning, is being mindful and intentional about what I feel.

I was feeling so down this morning. I felt a certain way about an individual, and I didn’t like it.

Instead of sorting through why I felt as I did, I slipped insecurity through my fingers via text.

Then, I remembered I didn’t have to feel yucky. I realized I could identify what I do feel, remove the foggy lense, and feel ok.

…..

I’m happier because I feel some sense of purpose.

Making time to care for these free little libraries has been one of the best decisions I’ve ever made.

I’m able to demonstrate kindness to my daughter’s.

I’m able to use my time for a greater good.

I able to get outside, and invest into the future of generations to come.

This allows me to give to the community and not have to deal with coworkers and deadlines lol.

This also provides a place where I can place necessities for those who may need it.

…..

It feels good to feel this sense of self acceptance and identity.

It really does!

Muslims in CLE, OH 🕉

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I can’t explain how proud I am to be a Clevelander! This local mosque has opened it’s doors to our community. Mental Health especially, is an area of which service is provided. The Muslims said they’re also simply trying to bridge the gap within the different faiths!

We can’t judge a whole group by the actions of a few. Happy Sunday ~

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Saturday Night

🌸 If you don’t read/see /hear positivity, BE IT 🦄

Kindness makes all the difference. Be that which you wish to see in this world 🌸

Today, Zivah and I put together these bags for our community. We’ll place them in the free little libraries so that whomever needs can privately do so. 😀 We were able to make 18 bags. Many included items are juice box, raisens, pen and writing pad, tea, hand wipes, tissues, and lotion. There’s additional items I didn’t list. I know some days, it’d be great to know where I could grab some lotion if I really needed it.

S&M

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” How long have you been standing there?”

” Longer than you’d find comfortable!”

” What all did you hear?”

” Oh! More than you’d wish for me to know!”

” What are you going to do to me?”

” I’m not certain just yet.”

” What’s that for?”

” Your naughty pleasures.”

” Oh it is, is it?”

” Come here and kneel down.”

” If I don’t?”

” Oh but you will.”

#CoffeeShare

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I’m sitting here, thinking about another blogger who wrote a “sit in” post. {That which is written while at the place the post takes place}.

I’m here @ McDonald’s (🥴); there’s only so much my girls would eat right now.

We are the only individuals in the seating area and playground.

Our store location is on the corner, from a Shell gas station ($2.29/gallon), Happy’s Pizza (which is disgusting to me!), and this other business I can’t see out the window.

The weather isn’t too cold, just enough to tease us of how Spring feels.

The customers are accumulating, a very odd set of three came in… Two of three in hoodies. I would say they’re high school age.

I’m sitting here drinking a large Dr Pepper. The staff is talking loud enough for everyone to hear. When I worked in fast food, we didn’t talk like that.

Today’s been an emotional day, most defiantly when my mind created problems that I don’t believe existed. I couldn’t get loose from the anxiety. I guess I should be gentle on myself for trying.

Anyway, this momma is utterly drained. Seven thirty can’t come soon enough.

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A Few Didactic Cinquains

New writing style

Inspired by Light Motifs II’s Didactic Cinquain

Written for Abigail’s Challenge

Idea originated here: Tao Talk

What:

5-Line Poem Challenge

How:

Line 1 = one single word = NOUN
Line 2 = two words that describe that noun = ADJECTIVES
Line 3 = three words that express action and end in -ing= VERBS
Line 4 = a four-word phrase about the way the noun makes you feel = PHRASE
Line 5 = a synonym of the initial noun = NOUN

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Tortured Soul

Writing

Souls are at different parts in this story. Each one has it’s own journey. One similarity in every story is that there’s pain. It’s a dark ugly cloud that changes every one that comes through. I’m not going to have this big romantic Valentine’s Day… my love won’t be near. For some, 02/14 is excruciating… similar to anniversary or bday. I just wanted those of you in this grief stricken state of mind, to know you’re not alone. You’re not unloved. It’s ok to dislike this day, but try to remain open to the opportunity of healing.

The Best is Yet to Come

2019

Her biggest heartache isn’t that she doesn’t have a great life;

Her biggest heartache is the life she keeps within her mind as if her “now” shows nothing in her favor.

Her biggest heartache is this image she’s holding onto, instead of embracing what she has.

Time has transformed so much, and that’s what time does best.

Trust your journey sweet moonchild;

It’s changing you for the better;

And the best is yet to come ❤️

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#NDRW- #29

Nova’s Daily Random Word- #29

Today’s Random Word: Stagnancy
Definition: State of being stagnant

Photo Credit Pixabay

Please tag each post #NDRW

Concept: To write everything and anything that comes to mind about the Daily Random Word.

It can be incomplete thoughts listed, a short story, a personal story, personal reflection, memories, whatever you want it to be. The idea is to get everything out. Once you’ve done that, you can return to these posts and use the ideas in your writing.

Have fun

01/06/2019

Visit

#6. A trip I want to take this year?

There’s a beautiful place Northeast of here, Huntington Beach. Yes, I understand there’s one in California, but there’s also a beautiful one here in Ohio. It’s on my list of adventures for this summer.

Taken from the Lakewood, OH News PATCH

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Where would you like to visit this year?

#FOWC: [Cleveland’s ] Wall [Murals]

FOWC: Wall

This is one of my most favorite aspects of my city! The artwork, surely some graffiti but respectfully well done, is magnificent! It’s scattered throughout downtown Cleveland, Ohio City, Parma, and several other suburbs. They are marvelous, absolutely worth a visit here.

Here an article from Cleveland Magazine🙂

Here’s a few additions pictures:

Freshwater Cleveland

Mural on W. 25th Cleveland

Cleveland Plus

Written for Fandango’s One Word Challenge: Wall

01/03/19

#3. Your day in ten words.

Blessed, Thursday, Cleveland, Midnight, Early, January, Enriched, Calm, Quite, Peaceful

It’s early here (12:02 am), so those of you East of the US, how’s your day going?

Later on, I’d love to hear from my mid-West American readers!

#commentbelow 10 words to describe your day

#NDRW – #20

Nova’s Daily Random Word- Day #20

Today’s Random Word: PROCLAMATION

Please tag each post #NDRW

Concept: To write everything and anything that comes to mind about the Daily Random Word.

It can be incomplete thoughts listed, a short story, a personal story, personal reflection, memories, whatever you want it to be. The idea is to get everything out. Once you’ve done that, you can return to these posts and use the ideas in your writing.

Have fun

Credit the Source

It’s flattering to reference an individual of any talent, as long as credit is rightfully acknowledged. We are all gifted with blessings, and what a world it is to have access to them. Our lives are better, more enriched. It’s the respect of due credit that displays thanks and appreciation for the gift.

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Adventures of a Single Mom 4

Today’s adventure

Mr Elf  and Mickey Mouse with my purchases today 🙂

I  chose Mint Chocolate, Frosted Crandberry, Campfire Coffee, and Pinapple Mango. There were people up super early. The associates were up at five! I couldn’t believe how many individuals were buying, but there was a 15 max limit. Did any of you grab any? This Frosted Crandberry is a seasonal favorite! I remember the first year I bought it. LOL! The Chocolate Mint was the next I grabbed. Last year, B&BW didn’t even have it! Can you believe that hogwash? Anyway, it’s in my home this Christmas. The Campfire Coffee smells just like a Paris Cafè!! Ooooommmmmggg. It’s amazing fokes, not half as much as you are, but still SO MUCH AWESOMENESS! The Pineapple Mango is a recent love of mine. It’s Summerish but still to  irresistible to pass up. I never liked pineapple growing up…. Isn’t it funny how time changes things?

Anyway, these are MY Christmas gifts to myself. I don’t feel selfish. I don’t feel guilty or greedy. Self Care means being good to me, all the time. A sale is the perfect temptation to buy candles, that overexcite my senses. Be sure you take some time for self care. 

Namastè

Page one for the day?

Good Morning Y’all. My brain is going a mile a minute, despite my lack of coffee intake. That’s very unusual, but, that’s the perfect adjective to describe my life right now.

It’s Thursday, a cold 25 degrees. I already miss summer. We’re up, getting my older daughter ready for school. She’s not entirely recovered from her head cold, but she’s feeling better. Calandra is doin ok. She’s mommy’s little sweet pea cuddle bug.

I’m alright, I suppose. One day at a time, working through the intensity of my emotions. Are there any other HSP’s or INFJs in the nearby blogosphere? If you know of someone, please introduce him/her to me. Anyway, back to these emotions. What I don’t understand makes me frustrated… When I get frustrated, I cry. Sometimes, I don’t believe it’s because of what initially happened, but some other aspect of the situation. For example, I’m not sad that my ex and I are not together, but how it happened has me really shook up.

Since I don’t go out much, I socialize on apps. This one has been my favorite by far. I can’t imagine my life without writing. Of course I don’t feel I’m a big deal, or that I even write exceptionally well. I do feel writing is an outlet for me to convey my thoughts. It’s a platform (that’s the word I was trying to find the other day! Facepalm) to release and create. The possibilities are endless, and my thoughts are on paper. I can create a short story about a love I wish happened to me.. or an ending I feel better suited for my ex. It’s my writing, and I may write as I please. There’s so much freedom in that.

Ok, well you all have a fantastic Thursday. The weekend is almost here. Keep warm if you’re in that part of the globe. Keep an eye out for future posts.

Adventures of a Single Mom

I don’t have two girls.

I have one very girlie daughter.

Then I have a very boyish daughter… Who’s singing about pee and poo, while taking a bath.

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Walking

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I’m in a new season of life. I don’t feel strong; I don’t feel emotionally capable of sounding ok or writing about all the positivity I have been. The very idea of positivity sounds patronizing to me right now…. But I’m just hurting…. And with hurt comes grief and anger.

What’s going on?

I’m walking… In an opposite direction, alone. I don’t want to, and I don’t know how long I’ll feel this way. I do know that the road feels bleek. The ugliest shades of winter and gray, overcast and cold. Sounds so depressing just to think about. I hope along the way, a front porch light turns on, and a friend will welcome me in. That won’t erase my reality, but it will brighten it.

Walking away is difficult, or everyone would be doing it… Ha, then we’d all look like the apocalypse with aimless wonderers contesting normality and questioning sanity. If that were the case, at least we’d keep each other out from traffic.

I’m walking in the opposite direction, because I’m not happy. I’m walking in the opposite direction because change won’t come unless I make it. I’m walking in the opposite direction in hopes that my message is loud and clear, even if I’m not certain what that is, or if there’s one or multiple.

I am intelligent. I know patterns define the character of a person. I know that I feel heavy, with sadness, rage, confusion, and a million questions. How could I expect myself to walk any road with all of that? Why would I? What’s the point? Life wasn’t made to be lived in such a condition.

Truths are staring me in the face, and they’re painful. It’s a part of life we all expierence, some of us on multiple occasions. I’ve read that pain doesn’t stop until you learn the lesson. That makes sense. The lessons right now are pivotal to my happiness. The truths in what I’m expierencing are evident to me, and quite possibly only me. It’s up to me to stop the insanity… So I changed directions and started walking.

Habla en Español #6

Now, I’m going to move on to some basic sentences.

Spanish: Ella es una mujer.

EnglishShe is a woman.

Spanish: Tú eres un niño.

English: You are a boy.

Spanish: Comes manzanas.

English: You eat apples.

Spanish: Tú eres hombre.

English: You are a man.

SpanishUsted es una mujer.

English: You are a woman.

Featured Image Credit: Spanish 4 Teachers Website

50 utterly random things about ME😂

  1. I can’t stand wet sand.
  2. I wash dishes from left to right.
  3. My bed is in the corner of my bedroom.
  4. I don’t have any allergies.
  5. I love most genres of music.
  6. Fushias, Daffodils, and Tiger Lilies are my favorite.
  7. I’ve tried Oyster and Lamb before.
  8. I’ve been to Alaska.
  9. My favorite animals are stingrays and turtles.
  10. I have an electronic toothbrush.
  11. I have an upstairs apartment.
  12. I played the sax and clarinet in school.
  13. I grew up in the country.
  14. I’m scared of heights.
  15. I’ve never tried any drug or cigarettes.
  16. I know how to ride a bike.
  17. I’ve never lived outside Ohio.
  18. My biological dad and I have recently started talking again.
  19. I love thick raspberry chocolate cheesecake.
  20. I own a laminate machine.
  21. Thanksgiving is my favorite holiday.
  22. I had one dog growing up.
  23. I had an upstairs bedroom.
  24. I own 3 different pair of glasses.
  25. I love chocolate with most things, especially nuts.
  26. I can’t stand tomato juice.
  27. I idolize Princess Diana.
  28. I’m an 8.5 size shoe.
  29. I fit into the same earings I wore in high school.
  30. I didn’t play any sports.
  31. I love red and pink wine.
  32. My home has rugs, not carpeting.
  33. I have lavender scented toilet paper.
  34. I’ve been married 2x before.
  35. I’ve recently watched “Sing” (super cute!)
  36. Some of my favorite TV shows are Chicago Med, Greys Anatomy, and The Good Doctor.
  37. Old places fascinate me.
  38. My heritage stems from Great Britian, Wales, and France.
  39. I have a PreKindergarden Teaching degree.
  40. I don’t have upper wisdom teeth but still have bottom.
  41. I love watching people (especially when they sleep).
  42. I’m 5ft 5 inches tall.
  43. My mother is my hero.
  44. I think of my pap when I hear coo-coo clocks.
  45. Some day I want a yard of fruit trees.
  46. I don’t know how to ice skate.
  47. I’ve been in the Macys Thanksgiving Day Parade.
  48. I’ve been on Maury Povitch.
  49. Both my kids weighed 8+lbs at birth.
  50. I really don’t know if I’m that interesting? Haha

Cleveland Scenery #2

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Cleveland Scenery

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Self (me) 💗

Happiness looks good on me. It’s a brand new makeup look. It’s a solid 3 hour nap. It’s the perfect lighting of a selfie, and a favorite song playing. It’s a Saturday night doing nothing, but refalling in love with your life. It’s feeling sexy and smiling at the unspoken secret behind a picture. It’s a natural high of incense burning, the one that reminds me of him. It’s feeling thankful that I’ve learned to be content with what I have… And it’s from the hardships that taught me such. It’s the satisfaction of satisfying hunger… It’s the vabrato of hair standing , sexy, and extremely talented singers… It’s the gratitude for the memories that visit… It’s opened windows in November, and a pain in my chest because I feel so much more than I know what to do with… It’s choosing to give… It’s choosing to love… And smile.

It’s choosing to live💙

#WAD: No Caption

Sometimes,

there simply aren’t sufficient words to describe the cherish of a moment.

Sometimes,

there aren’t words that would best explain the significance of a sister.

Sometimes,

there’s no need for words… No caption… No talking.

Just love, smiles, and laughter.

~Nova

 

The Daily Addiction Challenge can be found here:)

#CFFC Tuesday #3

Theme: Things people play with 

ANIMAL PUPPETS
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This is a free play area for kids at one of many Metro Parks in Cleveland. These puppets are awaiting kids at Rocky River Nature Center, along with blocks, a huge turtle shell, fish to view, and more.

Cleveland has really impressed me with how well kept they’ve managed these parks. In addition to the cleanliness, I’m so impressed with the whole set up. Big cities usually struggle to keep nature close by ; not Cleveland.

You can check out Cee’s Fun Foto Challenge Here:)

#WAD: Solitary

This word brings a number of thoughts to my mind.

  1. Solitary confinement. This was a place used in one of my favorite movies and TV series. The unfortunate decay of sanity in isolation is rather disturbing to me, though. I do believe humans need one another to survive. The struggle of solitary confinement emphasizes the power of the human mind.
  2. Historical change. A solitary individual sat in the “whites” section of a bus. A solitary March for freedom exemplified human rights to peaceful protest. The power of one can be just as influencial as the power of many.
  3. Single parenting. Good parents work endlessly to raise children right. They do so by by example, word, and deed. Some good parents are single parents. The struggle of that scenario can be much more difficult. I admire those in this case.
  4. Severe mental health patients and the elderly. Individuals become isolated because of a mental health condition. Whether due to development or aging, the mind alters thinking, behaving, and personalities. The safety of the individual is utmost important. When a person embarks on a solitary incident that threatens his /her safety, loved ones consider professional supervision. This whole ideas is disheartening to me. Independence gives one such an important sense of identity and freedom.
  5. The card game. As minut as this is, Solitary is one of my favorite card games.

 

 

 

This post is my next entry in Roger Shipp’s The Daily Addictions Challenge 💀☠️ You can learn more about his challenge, view the chosen word prompts, and read previous posts by clicking on his name 🙂

I see the weekend😁

Every bit of my body and soul is so excited that today’s Friday! I’m not even sure why:D I think I’m going to take my little sweet pea and look into spending time in nature! I need some refreshing inspiration. Sounds lovely, 🙂 Have a good day!!

Take Some Give Some

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My little volunteer project 😉😉 There’s lots of these around. I picked up 400 books to refill them. . . . #kindnessmatters #onlykindnessmatters #clevelandchildrensbookbank #freebookstoread #littlelibariersCleveland  @kidsbookbank 🙂

Day 14: Mommy Needs a Time Out

Good Morning:D It’s a grey and bleek Thursday morning here in my part of Ohio. I believe rain is to visit, periodically, this morning. While I had plans to invest some quality time into blogging, my daughters needed entertainment.

I knew there was plenty for them to do. Something about mommy pulling out toys with a few added words sparks their imagination much more quickly.

Growing up, I had 3 sisters and 4 brothers. I hated sharing toys. I hated when my mom would get impatient and tell us to go play. Now, I get it! Sometimes, every momma needs personal space. Sometimes, she just needs a 5 minuet time out.. to herself… So she can recollect and feel some sense of control in her life.

While I’m working on my thing, taking a little time for me, here’s a peak into the world of Zivah & Calandra 😀

Every ‘Hotel Transylvania’ Movie Ranked from Worst to Best

Every ‘Hotel Transylvania’ Movie Ranked from Worst to Best

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I absolutely can’t wait to see this!!

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I had lost thirteen pounds in two weeks. I was rudely awakened by the general consensus regarding others and my need to talk (they didn’t hear me!). I was isolated from a support system, most friends, professional help, and usually the general public. My anxiety astronomically skyrocketed because there was too much unknown. Not only that but there was absolutely NO consistency! I had terrible stomach pains, didn’t sleep much, drank entirely too much coffee…. and made myself feel crazy while “waiting”. The one ray of hope I THOUGHT I had, …. turned out to be a wolf in sheeps clothing. This was the life I had chosen for myself, a life most would’ve abandoned way sooner.

I’m not in that particular “time” any longer, though the aftermath lingers. Being single feels super lonely. I just invested 14 months submitting to a dominant… Now, if you’re not familiar with this lifestyle, please Google it. Needless to say, the submission is completely voluntary because in return, her needs (both in and outside the bedroom) are met. That’s how it’s “suppose” to happen.

Being single means alone… Sleeping, out to eat, nights, weekends, Netflix and Chill, every minute. Sure it’s healthy to be content with being alone. It’s necessary for such time, as well. Trust me, I understand that. There were too many instances over this time when I felt I should’ve had my boyfriend and I didn’t. He wasn’t there to hold me when I didn’t feel good. He wasn’t there to give me a hug when life felt too overwhelming. He wasn’t there to talk and work out our confrontations. He just wasn’t present.

With all of that being said, this was and is the man who’s had the greatest place in my heart. I looked for hope with us. I looked for change, for improvement. I felt that if I saw growth, we were headed in the right direction.

What direction was that?… And this is the error in this whole mess… The direction towards future tense picture of us. He and I were always talking about what we can do now to get to where we want to be. Now, that sounds like what a serious couple should be doing right? That’s something most couples do, and it should be a good sign… But, here’s the problem… Our current life wasn’t how we wanted it, so our goals were rather short term… We were working on this together… Hell, I thought we were even good as to being on the same page! This picture of us was constantly front and center! It’s how we always did it.

The beginning of this year, all that I knew life to be for him and I stopped… Abruptly…

And I wasn’t ready.

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#7 Well Done Meal

With the humidity here in Cleveland, I’ve lived on salads, sandwiches, and finger refrigerator foods. It’s awesome to know it’s healthy, and my body appreciates the sentiment. It’s just calories make me feel a bit more me and much less like Dracula! 😂😂😂 (Insert any Snickers commercial here..) This evening, I managed to bake chicken breasts covered with ranch dressing and Italian breadcrumbs! It was AMAZING!! The meat was super moist and loaded with flavor! I made Spanish Rice and a small veggies and cheese combo side! Collectively, everything complimented one another and was delicious! My girls weren’t interested in having any so I even got to enjoy it HOT!!

“Yay for happiness on a plate😂😂😂😂”